Yew….! You again, SAM!

Hey, everybody!!!! (though not sure if everybody is reading my super ?? blog.. haha… :P)

Sigh… boring hols not only make a person to think a lot, can drive a person crazy as well… well, I am the product u c… haha…

Hmm… I watched a lot of TV and the issue that can owes catch ppl’s attention is romance.., love… I get confused already, how to know u love the person? Wat will u do to the person u love? U know I owes say 2 my friens that love to my understanding is wat u choose, u choose to commit to a particular person, u choose to stay with the person no matter wat happens to the person….

I dunno…. somehow I just get confused by the dramas… haha…, I know u will say ‘hello, this is dramas, y do u believe in these fabricated scenes?’ Yeah, I know but u oso cant deny that sum parts r close to reality rite? Sigh.. confused man…

But then I realise that I feel insecure easily… I am like want to rely on a person but dare not to rely on too much, scared that I get hurt and dun like the feeling like I cant survive without the person… haha… modern woman… *vomit* Actually I think cant rely on a person fully oso, like my father owes complain I rely too much on him…

Especially in terms of relationships with ppl, omg, seriously I think… sigh… Okie… I admit that I am quite sensitive, so if there is sumthing that seems wrong I feel insecure… last tm got a frien said I m too talkative n ppl dun like it, then I became quiet, dun dare to talk happily in front of ppl… I think later on oso bcz of the exams, I din feel like talkin too much alr, except my gd frien, jess.

Oh, I read my friend’s blog last time, omg, she’s vr open to the extent that she writes wat exactly she feels in her blog… wuahaha… itz not goin to happen 4 me, though wat I write here of course is wat I want to share with my friens, I wun open my heart entirely in my blog… well, or else I feel insecure u c… haha.. Hmm… but her blog is a bit too sweet for me(for sum parts)… haha..

Hmm… shall apologise if I let sum ppl down, hehe… well.. shall say I m still immature… haha… hopefully nobody thinks that I let him or her down though I think I did…

Erm… last thing I want to say is… trust urself u can do it, do feel lack of confidence… do acknowledge u have the ability but not denying it… when everybody thinks u can do it!

C how lor… c how my almighty God leads me…

When u r borin, u tend to think a lot of unnecessary things….

Tt happens to me this holidays….

I kept thinkin the incidents happened this years…..

I owes think a lot until sometimes I feel bad… haha….

Shall elaborate next time.. too late alr….

Yeah, think that I am not a good person…haha…

Suddenly gt no confidence of myself?! Omg…

Hmm… went to watch 校园 Superstar on Saturday at Bishan out of curiosity..

I was very attention seeking cz I walked in between the 2 long queues, just to see if there was an ACJC student goin for that. There was actually one queue but bcz the people are too many, it became two queues…

Then I went to the actual place for audition. The judges were chong qing, jian fu n sum1 duno his name. I saw many went up stage, sang only a few lines then gt kicked out, obviously they dun hav the skill, voice n look. there were sum were quite good oso bt compared to the failures, they were reali a few.

I saw the contestants of 绝对 Superstars entertained the audience when the judges went to rest. Oh, they were good! I think they have improved a lot!!!! At first I remembered that gt people critisized their skills of being MCs bt when I saw them on stage, wat I saw were fluency, confidence, humerous… I think it is good… I gt a tot, superstar, idols all these competitions reali can make a person to become more confident in front of people… it is good to be confident… the people went for audition mostly were neighbourhood secondary school students, there were a few JC students oso… I din stay there until the end bcz very hot n tired… Bt I saw 1 Ac gal went up, kind of satisfied… haha…

In the morning I went to Barker school for the award ceremony of the YMCA thing.. Hmm… how i wish I can oso be a person who is good in management… Seems that management is very difficult to understand… gt a lot of learnings from the ceremony…

I reali like goin to my church man…. I like the pastors, he is very very humerous. He preached about rest ytd. I think I m lack of it, hehe… Then he oso gt talked abt some charismatic tricks tt sum ppl use… Like, a guy sayd to a girl, " God told me tt u are to marry me." Then the pastor said gals shld nt believe, he said, " Ask the guy, how cum God told bt din tell me? Im involved, u noe, I’m involved!!!!!" Haha… funny he is isn’t he? Then he said gt a person told him tt God told him to preach at New Creation Church, then he said but God told him no.. haha… At first wanna sleep alr, then becz of his humerous, I stayed awake thruout the whole service.

Then I went out with my frien at Boon Lay. I took bus n reached there after super long time.. We talked a lot of stuff, then walked to her house n to the pasar malam there. The pasar malam was not open at night but from morning to night! N it was not once a week but once a few months! My god… 

Argh…

super bored now… dun feel lyk doin homework…

update of wat I have done for last week..

hmmm….

wednesday I was busy I think… went for pw meeting in the afternoon, did nothing basically, watched animation (yeah!!!) then went for CCA meeting. Wah, it was very funny, cz when I was going to go out the room and went home, I was called to report my work.. if only I went back earlier… haha… so unlucky…

hmm…. gt OP on fri. haha, screwed up my Q n A.

today watched Swiss Dream Circus. Super nice!!!! Free somemore!!!!! haha….

Sigh…. cant b vr enthu now, duno, mayb gt no life… haha…

now become quiet… sigh… haha…nvm…

Wohoo!!! Ytd I went for a camp, orienteering camp organised by BB Barker..

At first, got to go for CIP. I was wearing school u with court shoes but was carrying a big bag for camping! It’s super off!!!

I hate wearing court shoes… Got blister on my small toe… but have to bear with it… Ytd e CIP was a seminar about fights against terrorisme, Security Watch Group, Red Cap Project. I visited e exhibition outside and the people there were eager to explain things to me, esp e metal door (duno wat’s e actual name) which can detect metal carried by ppl. Even e MCs were eager to explain to me… Cz when I tried it no indications is shown so one of the MCs lent me his watch yet nothing happened, haha…

After CIP, I quickly changed to casual wear and my journey to Sembawang BB/GB Campsite alone began. Wow, damn tired at the end of the CIP, slept a bit on the way.

When I reached there, found the dorm 4 AC Primers to sleep, and I slept again. The boys next door were very very very noisy. So after warning them, they were better, still a bit noisy though…

Haha… Talked to my officer during dinner. Guys, don’t try to bluff me that you are not thinking about sex when you are with your gf… cz my officer said guys are like that.. He oso shared his view of relationship..

At night, oh my goodness, we were trying to sleep early so that the next day, which is today, we can get up earlier for the long distance walk (ard 30 km) but the boys were super noisy. At the end I slept by the time they slept. What is the point of sleeping early?

So, at 4 we gathered at canteen and started our preparation and stretching. THen, we were given map to plot the checkpoints with the 8 figures grid. Haha, Ron accidentally gave us the answer sheet and we were still blur blur tot it was not..

We were the first team set off from the campsite. We were leading all the way. On foot all the way le…. Then we bought our branch, instant noodles and bread at Woodlands checkpoint then cooked at a park using solid fuel and portable stove. Fun man…

When we were reaching the end, we started running towards the campsite from the second last checkpoint. I was the last one, haha… At the end because of the incentif - 2 ice-cream per person if run back all the way - by Ron, we actually ran back. We impressed our officer, mr.chew n Barker teachers. They underestimated us, tot we would be e last one… we have proven we are strong! haha..

Ahh…. so now vr tired, gt a lot of laundry to do…