Long time din post le..
Hey there, long time I din post a new post.. Well, very tired and busy since school started.. Actually itz like when I want to post a post I dun reali know what to write..
Ok, so… Well, m in new hostel more than one week but still, I miss oldham.. I went back to msia last wkend and when I came back, was waiting for my turn to take dinner, I looked at the ppl around me, I thought, "No more oldham ppl…" Kinda sad u know.. the life in oldham cannot be replaced by any other thing.. It will be a very memorable memory to me..
Was scared by my gp teacher during the first gp lesson, she showed us the time line for gp this subject alone, ALONE ok, so scary la, the time line is so packed if added with my 4 a levels subs n 2 s papers, how?? Now gt to deal with fun-o-rama thing as well… die la, m so busy currently..
Ppl said you gotta fight for ur happiness, I was thinkin mayb itz quite impossible for me, I wun fight, even if I hav sum1 i admire in my heart, I will choose not to let him know… but he muz know my existence, haha… However, itz not that easy anymore, kinda tired alr… y mz I owes be bothered by this matter?? Study la!!
Gt a frien gt social phoebia, she’s hurt many times b4 until she has this sickness. Well, I feel I oso was hurt a lot of time but mayb wasn’t as much as she was that I din get this sickness. But I do hope she will get over it, I will pray for her. What I feel is she doesnt trust anybody n owes keep herself in a small world consists of her alone. She din feel that saying out her problem to ppl is a relief for her, I think she may feel worried that ppl may leave her bcz of this and thus her condition gets worst.. I actually have a lot of theories b4 I converted to Christ. Actually I think that the theories r somehow correct even though they are not so Christian based. I wanted to tell her but they are quite hard to understand.. I understand them by reading books n I duno any english books that can carry same message to her.. ( I read chinese books but she doesnt u c.. ) Well, I think will just pray for her so that she will be healed completely n have the courage to change sum parts in her heart..
The hostel food becomes better but the breakfast still….. yarkx..become heaty le, evrtm sleep late, ytd even chat with my bro until 3am… hopeless alr…
January 13th, 2006 at 6:12 am
DUDE, learn to manage your life lah!!!! You think you’re the only one busy? And you’re so soo sooo busy to the extent of having time to do blogging!!! Wow, oximoron!! Don’t argue that this is a part of your life and it helps you to vent your stress! You’d feel less stress by scraping more unnecessary stuff (like this) to have time doing hw or playing sports! By doing so, you release more stress instead of sitting here, contradicting yourself and build up depression! I can assure you i’ve more stuff to do than you, but i’m fine, ain’t I?!
And don’t complain about 4A or 2S. Almost everyone has! If you don’t like them, don’t take in the first place! Same as responsibility in CCA and Fun-O-Rame. You don’t do, someone else who afford the time will. Don’t take up the jobs just for teachers to think you’re “on”. No use if in the end you can’t do or give poor result!
Just try to be yourself, ok?! I know it’s hard coping with new system, new life. But you don’t have to put up a strong front. Just be yourself, do things JUST to the best of your ability, let go some work to have time to relax, to learn about life (A level isn’t life, study isn’t the only way to success). You’ve plenty of time ahead. This 2 years are to prepare you for life, not to kill you. Take your time to sit back and think before you act….
I seem like scolding you, but in fact i’m just trying to be constructively commenting. I know you don’t like me (you don’t have to say you do), but as straight-forward as i’m, i say these anyway. I’m not putting myself higher than you, but honestly i’ve been through all that. I came here younger than you, coping with more problems than you, (was) having less friends than you, got more scolding than you… I’ve been more depressed than you now, at times. So i know, k….
Well, no point saying more. I’m damn pissed with you today, but nvm that, someone cooled me down; otherwise…..