Yew….! You again, SAM!

On 30 Aug, all the Ac senior gals woke up late in e morning. It was fun not to go school without feeling worried at all, haha… Furthermore, a burden was taken away e day b4, making the Wednesday more desirable than usual..

In e morning, we were doing our own stuffs but basically were surfing net. Then dear Geri, Bei Shi n Jo went to buy the rest of e necessities for e bbq. Me, a bit cacat one, can only stay in e room, haha…. I was trying to watch animation, Bleach but I couldnt use my junior’s com to watch, haha… Yet I was able to watch a few episodes… I din take nap, haix…

Then at ard 5 o’clock, haha, we started our ‘operation’ in the pantry. We cut fruits, prepared salad n other stuff. Only 3 of us, y? cz the juniors were all outside, haha… so poor seniors had no choice but to use more tm to prepare lor… We had 2 watermelons, 2 honeydews n 2 papaya. We had cabbage, carrots, raisins, tuna, cucumbers n tomatoes for salad. We had 3 packets of balls (sotong n prawn) n 6 packets of hotdogs…. Cutting friuts n vege alone took us one hour plus..

It was raining. So where shall we have our bbq then? Luckily we had a suitable place for us to get e fire started. With e canteen Uncle’s help, Geri n juniors available during tt tm (Shaun, ah Kit, Ken n Allen) were able to start e fire.

Being senior, of cz I would not let go of any chance for e juniors to show appreciation to e seniors (basically it was jz a thick-faced request tt e junior guys cooked n served us…… hey we did quite a lot okie, we planned n prepared le… haha..) At e end, haha… hmm… a bit disappointed… haha… nah, Shaun was good, he did serve, e rest….. forget about them, haha…

Well, actually I wasnt happy when I finally bathed n went down after preparing for abt 3 hrs plus. Y? cz there were only Shaun, ah Kit, Ken n Allen. Where r e rest? Thought they should b coming down alr? If dun help out, at least eat la… I felt quite bad if I prepare sumthing for u yet u dun eat. Do u noe how much effort and mind we had put in? Haix.. nvr giv face to seniors…

Haha… then most of e guys came down, how abt e gals? They came down late but guess wat? They made a cake for us to eat!!! Wow, what a group of wonderful juniors were they! Really appreciate tt, haha….

Haha… Our teacher mentor (who is very kaypo n mean, haha..) wanted to drop by. As a reali thick-faced gal, I asked him to bring over Haigendaz ice-cream for us, haha… (who ask him to bully me so much? he deserves it la.. haha…) Thank God tt he was so nice to buy us ice-cream, haha… Although I only had two bites, I felt happy alr, haha…

Well, e real highlight was starting from e march-in. Tt tm e Ac senior guys were there alr.. We had gotten a full-sized flag, Allen, Janene, Shaun n Christina did e march-in. E flag was gotten from our sch teacher summore, haha, great job Esther. While they were marching in, e national anthem was full of e canteen. Videos n photos were taken, how fun! Even Mr David Loh (e teacher mentor) oso witnessed tt (though he tried to sing Singapore songs, in our domain, he sure lost one la, haha…) E flag was tied on a temporary ‘flagpole’, haha…

Tt tm was not midnight yet, so we continued our activities.. sum ate, sum played frisbee, sum talked, sum played cards… haha.. It was super fun! Then when it was close to midnight, haha, we started counting down… 8….7….6….5…..4…..3….2…..1…..

"Negaraku….." wohoo!!!! Happy National Day!!!

Then we said malay version pledge, led by Ken, e J1 msian rep then chinese version one by ah Kit. J2 rep, Jiun Siang then led us 3 shouts of Merdeka!!!! haha…. They were 3 loud n clear "Merdeka"!!!!

After that we started to sing state songs, tell u wat, Johoreans were e most enthu one!! Yay!!! haha… And we sang patriotic songs too, Keranamu Msia, Setia, Sejahtera Msia n Tanggal 31..

After having so much fun, we packed up n cleaned e place, at e end I only got to sleep at 2am, haha… There are some people I would like to thank. The breakfast Auntie was very nice to offer help in marinating the chicken wings for us, summore she marinated 2 types of flavour, one was normal while the other one was black pepper. Also the canteen Uncle oso helped us to start fire. The security guard oso was nice to send us floor by floor back (We cannot access our floor after 12am..). Geri, Bei Shi n Jo were great n e juniors were cheerful n lively to liven up the atmosphere..haha… Wat a wonderful event…

Hmm… these two days were quite happening to me.

First of all, on Saturday morning, I was cleaning the room with my roommates but this accident-prone gal hurt her toe when she was cleaning the toilet, haha… At the end, I ended up in NUH A&E to get my wound stitched. I knocked a metal cover on the floor and the blood was oozing out, haha, making the bathroom like a murder scene.. Well, the wound was quite gross la… haha… haix, wat to do, Im owes that careless…

Despite of my wound, I got the urge to visit my juniors’ church, Full Gospel Assembly(FGA). Actually it was because I finally felt bored of going to my church, the New Creation Church alone, after about one year , so I was thinking of visiting the church which most of my juniors go so that maybe next time I would be able to join them if I like the church.

It was kind of silly of me, some people may think. It is because I shld have rested due to my injury yet I walked a lot to go to this church. But being able to feel God’s presence was a great temptation (and it still is) tt was very hard to against with. I never regret going there even though I sort of made the skin near my wound to peel off.. (oops..hehe..)

It is a nice church. Compared to my church, the speakers are both good cz I have the urge to listen and I would not fall asleep. I like the worship in my church more, haha.. But the thing about FGA is that there is a group of msians there, most of them are j1’s, so far I have only met one j2, Hale (correct? haha… din ask for the spelling) from RJ. Hmm.. so how? which church to go to?

Something good and surprising is that I know three persons who are from JB!!!! haha.. the first one is in AC, she is from my primary school but different secondary school. She had gotten Merit Award in Form 3 and then studied in Sg. Now she is my junior! haha, so unexpected… We think each other are familiar but we forgot how did we know each other. I know her name but I jz couldnt recall how did I know her.. well, this is really something that make me feel happy. Another two I know from FGA. Hale, was classmate of my ex-SSI juniors, haha, interesting, the world is small.. It is cool to meet someone new but having some common friends. Another one I dunno how to spell his name.. He is J1, kinda cheeky but definitely smart.. cz he jumped from Primary 3 to 5, then got his school-based schorlarship from Chinese High in Primary 6.. and he’s from my primary sch too.. haha.. It is really nice to meet them!!!

Through this visit, I mz really mention some of the ‘gentlemanness’ of the guys. Here I mz really mention Allen, my junior (but he’s older than me, hehe… Im still young..woohoho..). He helped me carry my Bible and water bottle, he lent his shoes to me when he knew that I did not have suitable shoes (well, partly because I was vain, haha, die die oso mz wear shoes that match my clothes..), although he used to walk fast, he was gentleman to follow my pace (which was like tortoise’s speed), accompany me and talk to me.. haha, finally he let me see his better character, haha… well, really thank God for sending him as my junior… (let me give you some intro about him, haha… he is one of the crazy juniors, most of the time he would talk nonsense and make people laugh. His nonsense is really nonsense, like out of nowhere, haha… BUT when he talks about Christ, he is a different person, he shows his passion towards God and he is serious, haha, which is quite rare to see… We owes argue about our schs, Im from SSI while he’s from Pelangi, haha.. One thing I have to agree, he is quite smart since he can still be a scholar though he does not study much..)

Another guy would be Hale, cz he helped me carry my food while we were eating in food court. I din expect that and it was really nice of him, haha… Tt’s God’s blessings man… well, I really appreciate that, thanks a lot.

On Sunday, I went to my church and seriously I liked the worship there. That day we had healing session and I went out to receive the healing from God in the hope that my wound would not be too bad. Actually during the FGA service they had that session too but I was jz too shy to go out, haha.. Then after the service I went to shop for bbq stuff with roommies, juniors n AC guys!! haha… though I was walking like a ‘paika’ (a lame person) I did enjoy a lot, esp when Wei Kit kept bringing me eat those samples, haha…

Recently I jz knew that my grandma has osteoporosis and anaemia. Once her health was very bad tt she couldnt get up. My sis had to help her wash clothes.. She is only 9 yrs old… I felt kinda guilthy and I have made up my mind to maximise my time at home to help her as much as I can.. I think she has suffered quite a lot cz even though she is seventy plus, she still helps us wash clothes and cooks… Also kinda regret tt last tm I din help her doing these in secondary sch due to my laziness… So, Im going back evr weekend after Sept hols till 21 Oct to help her.. I realised that I would not be able to go to church therefore I decided to go to FGA n my church next weekend.. Ytd I was quite emotional cz I think I would miss God a lot in Sept n Oct… I jz like to enjoy His presence n His Words… knowing that so much He has given to me, I want to love Him more..

Hmm… some discoveries of myself.. When I was young, I learnt this Chinese Idiom, ji suo bu yu, wu shi yu ren (meaning whatever things that you do not want, you do not give to other people). It became one of my principle because I like the way it is. I think it is necessary to owes respect the others and b considerate. Therefore, I would try not to say and do certain things to the others because I would not like the things happen to me.. And from my experience, I oso try not say wrong things, which depends on individuals.

But sometimes even if u dun say, it still happens to you. Well, that happened to me recently and I don think I handled it well.. For example, I dun like ppl say some words abt me, either in a joking or a serious manner, like ’stupid’. I dun like because I dun think anyone is stupid cz you cannot be stupid in evr areas. God has a purpose creating us, if any of us is stupid and cant achieve the purpose, he shldnt be created in the first place. But bcz He has a puspose in creating evrone, no one is stupid. Also I think that Im not stupid and I dun want to say that Im stupid jz to entertain. The situation was tt someone had teased me being stupid, I knew it was a joke but when I was trying to deny and that person still wanted to made fun of me, I felt that I ‘lost face’ and I hated tt feeling. Felt like condemned. Whether or not it wasnt intended, I detested the word strongly.. But I couldnt say anything bcz I din want to say anything mean or bad to ‘earn my face’, I cared for the person’s feelings.. Another eg is that I will feel unhappy when I know that you do not want certain things, and to me by common sense you know that I would not or most likely do not like the things yet you still offer me or sort of ordering me to have.

Hmm… truly I was kinda disturbed due to tt incident but I knew that God had spoken to me through these verses..

John 15:9-13

9 "As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in my love.10 "If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.11 "These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full.12 "This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.13 "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

Therefore, I have forgiven the person.

Oh dear… I think one thing Im scared of should be prelims, haha…

At first, I was actually thinking that, nvm la, prelims only, not important one la, A levels is more impt… then i heard ppl were saying tt study for A levels, not prelims, so if cannot finish oso nvm….

It was realli at first.

The first paper - General Paper…. One word, Shocked. plus, Stunned. But it was always like tt… ok lor… Then, Math.. it was tough oso, so much tougher than term exam… Chem paper 3, at e end of e paper, wanna cry alr, cz i felt i underperformed quite badly, it was out of expectation… Here comes the worst day when I had Phy paper 1 n 2 and Further Math paper 1.. I couldnt finish phy paper 2, in e afternoon i did too much careless mistakes…. argh…

First week only, I suppose right after chem paper 3, i sensed e tremendous stressed… One of e things I cannot accept always is I underperform. I know it in my heart very well. For me, you either maintain or improve, you cannot underperform, cz this means tt all e while u r jz wasting ur tm studying… haix, think should adjust my mindset a bit, so tt next tm i’ll feel less blow?

But I was really thankful tt when I felt sad, I had ppl comforting me, Jess, roommates, friends n Gorgor (brother)!!!! haha… actually the first thing I tot was call bro n cry bitterly, manja to him, haha… Who knows he had lecture, only two hours later then i called but din feel like crying le.. haix, still cannot manja to him…. haha…But I was really thankful tt they kept encouraging me, helping me to pick up myself soon, so tt i could focus on e next paper, I feel so loved.. haha… Thank you Father Lord…

Then this week, I was telling myself, mz try my best to do well, dun want to feel regret afterwards… therefore I put more stress on myself.. the first paper this week was Further Math paper 2. I owes thought I know e stuff but when I looked at e MJ paper, oh dear I got super duper shocked that I wanted to escape.. I couldnt do at all!!!! What a paper… scared me like crazy, I felt helpless… I shed some tears cz I was angry that how come I still couldn’t do. I knew tt I needed to be extra careful in doing paper 2 to conpensate e paper 1 but e thing is statistics qns are something that once u get it, u get it; u dun get, too bad… mechanics, die le die le…. esp e rigid body, reali bei da bai le… N I cried out to Lord in my heart, I was clueless of what would happen during the test, would I jz leave many qns blank? this thought was scary… Focusing in God was what I could do..

Fortunately, e paper din turn out as bad, n I think It was reali God’s grace tt at least I could do most of them… though at e end din finish oso… I felt satisfied.. I reali thanked God for helping me… Then I had Chem paper 2 e next day, oh man… I realised I shouldnt have screwed up my paper 3 cz I had no hope in getting more marks in paper 2.. It was terribbly TOUGH.. The qns were very different from what we always did…

Due to this blow, I think my room became a little bit crazy, haha… we were using bs’s account to kacau Shaun, our junior.. Geri started e conversation, then we continued, haha, guess he got quite confused by us.. But it was fun, haha.. even though our image may b ‘tarnished’ a bit, I think i would miss it.. haha… n we were saying, dun wan to study la… vr sienz… haha… but later on tt nite, we started feeling scared for ytd’s phy paper 3.. The first tm I felt super scared b4 sitting for a phy paper… gosh… N I used about one hour to discuss a fluid qn! I hadnt reali gone through what I wanted to go through…oh dear… as usual, I cried out to Lord… haix, luckily I still can sleep or else I would jz die… N i din get to do many math qns for Math paper 2..

Well, had these two tests, left one more Chem paper 1, e last one, on Tues. I hope tt e tm will pass soon, then haha, hols!!!!! To reward us for being able to pull thorugh this period, also to really have something ‘Malaysian’, we are having National Day countdown bbq on Wed!!!! yohoo!!! haha…

I remembered I joked once, if Im able to be alive after prelims, I think Im really healthy, cz after been through so many times of heart attacks n I m still leaving, proving tt I have a rather strong heart. Also I said, Im grateful to b able to die and revive again for so many times… What a prelim…

One thing to note, Im gaining weight!!!! haha… cz I have been eating a lot, I jz felt like eating la… I somehow felt hungry easily, even modway through a paper I felt hungry… haix it’s not gd.. but what to do? Be fat lor…. haha… think mz cut e quantity of food.. haha… n I have scary dark eye rings… e undesireable side effect, haha….. so to sum up, I become uglier le, haha….

Jz nw went to look at friends’ photos uploaded on friendster, xia dao, everyone look great, handsome n pretty, feel like meeting they all, haha… but it is kinda impossible la.. haha, looked at e photos i realized kinda miss them too.. haha… but i have to move on… haha…

Hmm. satisfied le, after such a long post…

Haha.. it has really been a very long time since my last post.. well, cannot help it la… too busy le… but today I am a little bit.. just a very little bit of rebellious that I have decided to update my friendster blog, haha…

Hmm.. well, I went for Mt Ophir for expedition in June hols.. It was fun during the climbing but boring at night. At night, I din no what to do, we din have activities, just talked n talked n talked. At the end we all slept early. Haha, I din no that I was so picky.. the ground was hard and uneven, I din feel comfortable, plus I used to sleep late, so I couldnt really sleep.. Amazingly, I still had the energy to complete the climbing even though I din sleep enough.. Another fun thing was that we cooked our meals using mess tins.. We can cook rice, so fun, haha… On the last day, we all had our own special meals that only a few of us ate the rice… I was one of them, my god, I felt super duper full that night, haha…

Then when the school started after june hols, what I remembered was test, test, test… especially for maths.. the teachers were crazy, lecture tests did not really satisfy their needs, therefore they gave tests during tutorials as well.. oh dear.. I know they have good intention but it was jz a bit too much to me..

Haha, here came Asean Dance to make my life more lively. Somethings that were different in this year compared to last year were that I had longer and rebonded hair, I wore a dress instead of two pieces and I had a dance partner for the Dance! haha.. the last thing was just out of my expectation!! Actually felt quite excited for the fact that I had a dance partner, somemore he is my roommates’ junior. We met in Oldham hall before I moved out from there u see..

On that day I remembered I had a mock physics paper 3 exam, then I went for a scholarships talk which I left earlier so that I can finich my preparation for the Dance on time.. But one hour was not enough for me to shower, paint nail polish on my nails, dry my hair…etc.. haha.. I used about 15 mins more, just to make sure that I looked good.. haha..

Then went down to the bus, I was super self-conscious, haha.. It was all my juniors’ fault! The guys la, owes teased me as fat girl, haha… And when the bus was reaching the hotel, haha.. the more I thought I was going to meet my dance partner, the more I felt self-conscious! Oh dear, that moment I felt a little bit regret for having a dance partner cz that self-conscious feeling was really killing me…

So then we reached there, met some friends, from ACSI and Oldham. But those from Oldham did not follow their bus but they took taxi.. Meaning that my dance partner had not yet come.. Surprisingly his friends were teasing me, so I jz smiled back without saying anything..(Tot it was quite common among them about having a dance partner thingy..)

After he had come, I introduced him my juniors, haha, felt kinda proud to show him my beloved juniors!!! Undeniably everytime I am quite disturbed when they tease me fat yet they are still my beloved juniors because they are very lively, lovely and cheerful. Haha… I did talk to Aj juniors and I oso realised that they loved taking photos, wohoo… Was glad oso to meet Mei Yan, Christine, Michele, Sue Wen and Howard..

Fast dance is something I won’t really try cz I dun find the point of it, maybe I jz dunno how to dance that’s all, haha… As a result, I din quite take note of the US and RJ bands and I din dance fast dance haha.. Instead I just walked around and chatted with friends. Haha, guess what, I saw Yap Han Ern n Sebastian!!! Oh dear, that was the first time I saw them since they came to Singapore to study!!! That was surprising.. and my dance partner knew Sebastian.. even more surprising, haha.. Well, nice to see them la.. but they din quite recognise me, which was good oso la, at least I felt happy that I have changed quite a bit in the way I look, hopefully I have become prettier, haha… nah, jz jk..

Of course to me the most memorable part was slow dance. To be frank, I was actually imagining how many people I would dance with before the Dance. I was actually hoping that I danced with more than one guy.. At the end, haha.. I danced with my dance partner only, haha… But, no regrets.. the slow dance was still the nicest thing in this Dance.. at least to me la.. haha..

But one thing I regretted… I din manage to take the ACJC cohort photo!! Haix… never mind la… haha… I merge myself into the pic can alr.. haha…

Lastly, I want to talk about God. Recently I feel my love towards God is becoming stronger. Im very grateful whatever things that He has given to me.. Ever since the first time I prayed to Him in form four and I officially received salvation last year, the more I know Him, the more I think about what He has done for me, the more I appreciate His love and the more I love Him. He is just great, too great for me. To think that I have such a great God, I feel very happy, haha…

I want to thank God for bringing me into ACJC; I want to thank God for giving me Jess, hy, etc etc as my good friends; I want to thank God for I have wonderful roommates; I want to thank God for my juniors, they are just too wonderful to me; I want to thank God for helping me in my studies; I want to thank God for my teachers for they are extremely helpful; I want to thank God for those people I know; I want to thank God for owes protecting me; I just want to thank God for everthing. He is just too wonderful that I have no regret believing in him. Father I love You.

Truthfully my experience in Singapore is very good. I meet nice people and I like them. I must say I will miss them a lot once I graduate from A Levels… Recently I oso feel very happy, haha…