Yew….! You again, SAM!

Hmm… these two days were quite happening to me.

First of all, on Saturday morning, I was cleaning the room with my roommates but this accident-prone gal hurt her toe when she was cleaning the toilet, haha… At the end, I ended up in NUH A&E to get my wound stitched. I knocked a metal cover on the floor and the blood was oozing out, haha, making the bathroom like a murder scene.. Well, the wound was quite gross la… haha… haix, wat to do, Im owes that careless…

Despite of my wound, I got the urge to visit my juniors’ church, Full Gospel Assembly(FGA). Actually it was because I finally felt bored of going to my church, the New Creation Church alone, after about one year , so I was thinking of visiting the church which most of my juniors go so that maybe next time I would be able to join them if I like the church.

It was kind of silly of me, some people may think. It is because I shld have rested due to my injury yet I walked a lot to go to this church. But being able to feel God’s presence was a great temptation (and it still is) tt was very hard to against with. I never regret going there even though I sort of made the skin near my wound to peel off.. (oops..hehe..)

It is a nice church. Compared to my church, the speakers are both good cz I have the urge to listen and I would not fall asleep. I like the worship in my church more, haha.. But the thing about FGA is that there is a group of msians there, most of them are j1’s, so far I have only met one j2, Hale (correct? haha… din ask for the spelling) from RJ. Hmm.. so how? which church to go to?

Something good and surprising is that I know three persons who are from JB!!!! haha.. the first one is in AC, she is from my primary school but different secondary school. She had gotten Merit Award in Form 3 and then studied in Sg. Now she is my junior! haha, so unexpected… We think each other are familiar but we forgot how did we know each other. I know her name but I jz couldnt recall how did I know her.. well, this is really something that make me feel happy. Another two I know from FGA. Hale, was classmate of my ex-SSI juniors, haha, interesting, the world is small.. It is cool to meet someone new but having some common friends. Another one I dunno how to spell his name.. He is J1, kinda cheeky but definitely smart.. cz he jumped from Primary 3 to 5, then got his school-based schorlarship from Chinese High in Primary 6.. and he’s from my primary sch too.. haha.. It is really nice to meet them!!!

Through this visit, I mz really mention some of the ‘gentlemanness’ of the guys. Here I mz really mention Allen, my junior (but he’s older than me, hehe… Im still young..woohoho..). He helped me carry my Bible and water bottle, he lent his shoes to me when he knew that I did not have suitable shoes (well, partly because I was vain, haha, die die oso mz wear shoes that match my clothes..), although he used to walk fast, he was gentleman to follow my pace (which was like tortoise’s speed), accompany me and talk to me.. haha, finally he let me see his better character, haha… well, really thank God for sending him as my junior… (let me give you some intro about him, haha… he is one of the crazy juniors, most of the time he would talk nonsense and make people laugh. His nonsense is really nonsense, like out of nowhere, haha… BUT when he talks about Christ, he is a different person, he shows his passion towards God and he is serious, haha, which is quite rare to see… We owes argue about our schs, Im from SSI while he’s from Pelangi, haha.. One thing I have to agree, he is quite smart since he can still be a scholar though he does not study much..)

Another guy would be Hale, cz he helped me carry my food while we were eating in food court. I din expect that and it was really nice of him, haha… Tt’s God’s blessings man… well, I really appreciate that, thanks a lot.

On Sunday, I went to my church and seriously I liked the worship there. That day we had healing session and I went out to receive the healing from God in the hope that my wound would not be too bad. Actually during the FGA service they had that session too but I was jz too shy to go out, haha.. Then after the service I went to shop for bbq stuff with roommies, juniors n AC guys!! haha… though I was walking like a ‘paika’ (a lame person) I did enjoy a lot, esp when Wei Kit kept bringing me eat those samples, haha…

Recently I jz knew that my grandma has osteoporosis and anaemia. Once her health was very bad tt she couldnt get up. My sis had to help her wash clothes.. She is only 9 yrs old… I felt kinda guilthy and I have made up my mind to maximise my time at home to help her as much as I can.. I think she has suffered quite a lot cz even though she is seventy plus, she still helps us wash clothes and cooks… Also kinda regret tt last tm I din help her doing these in secondary sch due to my laziness… So, Im going back evr weekend after Sept hols till 21 Oct to help her.. I realised that I would not be able to go to church therefore I decided to go to FGA n my church next weekend.. Ytd I was quite emotional cz I think I would miss God a lot in Sept n Oct… I jz like to enjoy His presence n His Words… knowing that so much He has given to me, I want to love Him more..

Hmm… some discoveries of myself.. When I was young, I learnt this Chinese Idiom, ji suo bu yu, wu shi yu ren (meaning whatever things that you do not want, you do not give to other people). It became one of my principle because I like the way it is. I think it is necessary to owes respect the others and b considerate. Therefore, I would try not to say and do certain things to the others because I would not like the things happen to me.. And from my experience, I oso try not say wrong things, which depends on individuals.

But sometimes even if u dun say, it still happens to you. Well, that happened to me recently and I don think I handled it well.. For example, I dun like ppl say some words abt me, either in a joking or a serious manner, like ’stupid’. I dun like because I dun think anyone is stupid cz you cannot be stupid in evr areas. God has a purpose creating us, if any of us is stupid and cant achieve the purpose, he shldnt be created in the first place. But bcz He has a puspose in creating evrone, no one is stupid. Also I think that Im not stupid and I dun want to say that Im stupid jz to entertain. The situation was tt someone had teased me being stupid, I knew it was a joke but when I was trying to deny and that person still wanted to made fun of me, I felt that I ‘lost face’ and I hated tt feeling. Felt like condemned. Whether or not it wasnt intended, I detested the word strongly.. But I couldnt say anything bcz I din want to say anything mean or bad to ‘earn my face’, I cared for the person’s feelings.. Another eg is that I will feel unhappy when I know that you do not want certain things, and to me by common sense you know that I would not or most likely do not like the things yet you still offer me or sort of ordering me to have.

Hmm… truly I was kinda disturbed due to tt incident but I knew that God had spoken to me through these verses..

John 15:9-13

9 "As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in my love.10 "If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.11 "These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full.12 "This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.13 "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

Therefore, I have forgiven the person.

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