Yew….! You again, SAM!

Oh dear… I think one thing Im scared of should be prelims, haha…

At first, I was actually thinking that, nvm la, prelims only, not important one la, A levels is more impt… then i heard ppl were saying tt study for A levels, not prelims, so if cannot finish oso nvm….

It was realli at first.

The first paper - General Paper…. One word, Shocked. plus, Stunned. But it was always like tt… ok lor… Then, Math.. it was tough oso, so much tougher than term exam… Chem paper 3, at e end of e paper, wanna cry alr, cz i felt i underperformed quite badly, it was out of expectation… Here comes the worst day when I had Phy paper 1 n 2 and Further Math paper 1.. I couldnt finish phy paper 2, in e afternoon i did too much careless mistakes…. argh…

First week only, I suppose right after chem paper 3, i sensed e tremendous stressed… One of e things I cannot accept always is I underperform. I know it in my heart very well. For me, you either maintain or improve, you cannot underperform, cz this means tt all e while u r jz wasting ur tm studying… haix, think should adjust my mindset a bit, so tt next tm i’ll feel less blow?

But I was really thankful tt when I felt sad, I had ppl comforting me, Jess, roommates, friends n Gorgor (brother)!!!! haha… actually the first thing I tot was call bro n cry bitterly, manja to him, haha… Who knows he had lecture, only two hours later then i called but din feel like crying le.. haix, still cannot manja to him…. haha…But I was really thankful tt they kept encouraging me, helping me to pick up myself soon, so tt i could focus on e next paper, I feel so loved.. haha… Thank you Father Lord…

Then this week, I was telling myself, mz try my best to do well, dun want to feel regret afterwards… therefore I put more stress on myself.. the first paper this week was Further Math paper 2. I owes thought I know e stuff but when I looked at e MJ paper, oh dear I got super duper shocked that I wanted to escape.. I couldnt do at all!!!! What a paper… scared me like crazy, I felt helpless… I shed some tears cz I was angry that how come I still couldn’t do. I knew tt I needed to be extra careful in doing paper 2 to conpensate e paper 1 but e thing is statistics qns are something that once u get it, u get it; u dun get, too bad… mechanics, die le die le…. esp e rigid body, reali bei da bai le… N I cried out to Lord in my heart, I was clueless of what would happen during the test, would I jz leave many qns blank? this thought was scary… Focusing in God was what I could do..

Fortunately, e paper din turn out as bad, n I think It was reali God’s grace tt at least I could do most of them… though at e end din finish oso… I felt satisfied.. I reali thanked God for helping me… Then I had Chem paper 2 e next day, oh man… I realised I shouldnt have screwed up my paper 3 cz I had no hope in getting more marks in paper 2.. It was terribbly TOUGH.. The qns were very different from what we always did…

Due to this blow, I think my room became a little bit crazy, haha… we were using bs’s account to kacau Shaun, our junior.. Geri started e conversation, then we continued, haha, guess he got quite confused by us.. But it was fun, haha.. even though our image may b ‘tarnished’ a bit, I think i would miss it.. haha… n we were saying, dun wan to study la… vr sienz… haha… but later on tt nite, we started feeling scared for ytd’s phy paper 3.. The first tm I felt super scared b4 sitting for a phy paper… gosh… N I used about one hour to discuss a fluid qn! I hadnt reali gone through what I wanted to go through…oh dear… as usual, I cried out to Lord… haix, luckily I still can sleep or else I would jz die… N i din get to do many math qns for Math paper 2..

Well, had these two tests, left one more Chem paper 1, e last one, on Tues. I hope tt e tm will pass soon, then haha, hols!!!!! To reward us for being able to pull thorugh this period, also to really have something ‘Malaysian’, we are having National Day countdown bbq on Wed!!!! yohoo!!! haha…

I remembered I joked once, if Im able to be alive after prelims, I think Im really healthy, cz after been through so many times of heart attacks n I m still leaving, proving tt I have a rather strong heart. Also I said, Im grateful to b able to die and revive again for so many times… What a prelim…

One thing to note, Im gaining weight!!!! haha… cz I have been eating a lot, I jz felt like eating la… I somehow felt hungry easily, even modway through a paper I felt hungry… haix it’s not gd.. but what to do? Be fat lor…. haha… think mz cut e quantity of food.. haha… n I have scary dark eye rings… e undesireable side effect, haha….. so to sum up, I become uglier le, haha….

Jz nw went to look at friends’ photos uploaded on friendster, xia dao, everyone look great, handsome n pretty, feel like meeting they all, haha… but it is kinda impossible la.. haha, looked at e photos i realized kinda miss them too.. haha… but i have to move on… haha…

Hmm. satisfied le, after such a long post…

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