Emo… ?!
Finally I have the desire to post an entry. Lol..
Well, I have been emo and high, high and emo for sometimes. Perhaps now my yin and yang are not balanced, resulting in having two extreme emotions.
The reason for it I don’t know. But I can only accept it. I have been frustrated as why I should feel emo due to certain things. As if this is a very big thing in my life. Perhaps it is something that I have not achieved and be satisfied about. It seems to be always the same problem and sometimes other things add on to it, making me feel burdened.
I can’t get rid of it.
Everytime when I am overwhelmed by it I pray to God. Though I obtain the temporary peacefulness, it has never been away from my life. I am getting impatient. I am getting frustrated. What can I do?
Luckily, I can still smile. Luckily, it doesn’t affect my routine too much. But it affects my feelings. I wish I can control my feelings.
Is this another trial that God wants me to go through? If yes, I would rather He just takes my life and let me join Him in heaven. Cause it is really hard to manage my feelings. I have no control over it.
And I feel low confident. Aiks, this is no good at all.
Is there a bigger surprises waiting for me? Hopefully there is..
But one surprise has happened. One of my sec school senior is studying in NTU! Hmm, though we were not close, hope he can fit into uni life here. Actually, if it is not him, I would not realise what an interesting malaysian community it is in NTU. Everybody is so unique and interesting. Suddenly I feel that I like them a lot! Haha…
