Archive for March, 2008

Monday, March 10th, 2008

为什么以前我没注意到你?

那又为什么现在我注意到你?

如果像从前那样不是很好吗?

脑海里就不会常常想念你

心情也不会因为你而起伏不定

I feel like singing, I feel like dancing, I feel like doing some other things to divert my attention.

I just hope that I stop thinking so much

Things aren’t the same anymore

People change

And I fear of certain change

Lord, may You just pull me through. May you protect my heart.

I know You want me to be happy. I just know that.

1 Cor 13:4-8 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believe all things, hopes all things, endure all things. Love never fails.

This is the love You have given me.

Busyness…..

Saturday, March 8th, 2008

In these few days, I have been busy. I have been spending lotsa time understanding employee engagement and 2 paintings in order to do my essays. However, everytime when I wanted to write, I have nothing in my head.

As I have been busy I have been feeling tired as well. Yesterday when my juniors got their results for their A levels, I was super high until at night. Yet, I was so on to go for a supper. This resulted in lack of sleep for today’s activity: NTU Open House.

Today is a killer also. I have been walking up and down. However, I have a great bunch of collegues for they are so fun to be with. There are definitely many stories to tell for these two days.

The time we spend with friends is definitely memorable. Being togather with my juniors definitely bring back lotsa funny memories. Even when we have not seen one another for long, the feeling when we are together is still the same. Especially when my juniors said,

“Why you wanna come here? No one wants to go NTU one!” (I went back AC to promote NTU)

“Fatso, you come here for wat?”

“Hey, you still owe me a meal……ok?”

“Samantha, you are very auspicious. Because you have 38, 33, 38.”

Ya, all these things that my cheeky juniors have said to me tell me that they are still the same. Of course, I am still happy when I am bullied by my guy juniors, my gal juniors will stand up for me, haha. This chance to meet these kinds of people is too rare. Just want to hope that the relationship will not end.

I have been tired also because there is one thing keeps occupying my mind. Day and night. It is just too powerful for me to not let me have a good night sleep. I wanna keep praying about it…

Narcissus

Tuesday, March 4th, 2008

I  have always been using narcist, or narcissism, words like that. What I never know is that Narcissus is part of the Greek mythology.

Interesting.. Haha.. In the mythology, Narcissus fell in love with his own reflection, i.e. fell in love with himself. As he can’t get what he loved, he then died and became a flower.

There are many versions of his story. One of it is Narcissus dived into the water in order to get closer to what he loved, he drowned himself. After he died, the lake into which he dived, turned into a salty lake.

"Why do you weep?" the goddesses asked. "I weep for Narcissus" the lake replied. "I am surprised that you weep for Narcissus," she said, "for though we always pursued him in the forest, you were the only one that could contemplate his beauty close at hand." "But… was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked. – “You do not know that?" the goddesses said in wonder. "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt every day to contemplate himself!"

The lake was silent for some time. Finally, it said: "I weep for Narcissus, but I never noticed that Narcissus was beautiful. I weep because, each time he knelt beside my banks, I could see, in the depths of his eyes, my own beauty reflected."

What the lake said touched my heart. A lot of times, when other people praise us, or see the good in us, we will treat them better. That’s why sometimes if we want to engage a person in a conversation, it is good to sort of praise the person, or say things that the person likes. In a way, we all like ourselves. When we see the beauty in us, we feel happy. But we are insecure, that’s why we need praises.

I wish other than looking my reflection from this person’s eyes, I can see more than that. Can I?