Yew….! You again, SAM!

Next week I am going to finish my A levels exams.

It lasts for four weeks and now three weeks are down.

I still have Further Maths Paper 2, Math S and Physics S to go… which are the hardest among the four subjects that I am taking.

Well, before the exams, I always had this feeling that I have gone through Prelim which is supposed to be harder than A levels, so A levels should be quite easy and thus less stressful. However, some papers have proved me not…

Gp, not to mention, a headache to me. Because of my poor English that I needed to work extra hard in order to ensure, not a pass for this subject but a pass for A LEVELs!!! To improve myself, I had planned that I would try my best to do well in my four subjects in J1, at least to get a strong foundation in J1 work, so that I can concentrate on Gp in J2. (Actually part of the reason was I would prefer to do the rest of the work rather than Gp, so I chose what I like to do first..) So in J2, I put a lot more efforts on Gp. I went for GEL lessons (which in fact helps me a lot), I copied examples from newspaper (Can you imagine, last time I did not even bother to read newspaper, now I started to like to read news about the world), I did research for essays and AQs etc etc So now it came to the last Gp exam that I hoped does prove that my efforts are worthwhile. The essay was pretty ok, because the question that I did was straight-forward. However the problem was too many people attempted that questions, so.. maybe I can pass but cannot score.. The comprehension, haha, was about FREEDOM.. It followed previous year style which gave us one passage only. (most of the time the teachers gave two passages for comprehension practices) The AQ was, "How far do you agree with the author’s views? How free do you want to be?" Oh dear..

It seemed that the style they set the questions has changed. Maths and Physics especially. I do not know the rest because I am not sitting for those papers. The change in Maths, frankly, did not affect me much for I had learnt many techniques of tackling and answering the Math C challenging questions from Further Maths. However, the change in Physics has given me the greatest shock ever. The paper 2 was a killer. So many things I realised that I did not focus on, the teachers did not too.. I got a bit worried that I did not know enough for this subject, yet I seldom have this lack of confidence in Physics. I complained to brother, trying to get his affirmation that this paper was indeed hard but I couldn’t. Well, I blamed a lot on the teachers for they did not focus on what has come out on paper 2 but then I realised it was not going to help much, I just hoped that everybody has the same feeling that the paper was tough so that I will not fall out of the distinction range. Actually the teachers in the whole Singapore did not really focus on those which have come out in the paper.

Chemistry was pretty ok, except that I was a bit dumb in the sense that there were some questions were super duper easy that I did not able to decipher and answer. This situation happened in FM paper 1 oso… but I think it is better in FM…

Well.. just hope that the rest of the paper will turn out ok…

Everything is in God’s hand.

Haix.. one bad thing has happened.. I am sick!!! Haix… I feel miserable for not being able to sleep well at night, furthermore I have to sit for exam. However, with God’s grace, He has seen me through the exams. At least I was not sleep halfway during the exam or not being able to see and think carefully. This is what I am really thankful of.

On the way of preparing for the exam, I did not have the mood to post something. Therefore I did not write about hostel’s celebration night and some other things that had happened.. Think I’ll continue next time…

I think I should blog about this..

Yesterday it was my Baccalaureate service, or rather, all j2’s Baccalaureate service. It was an official graduation ceremony for ACJC J2s. It was a special day for each and every one of the students and the teachers.

Initially it was special for me because it meant LAST DAY of SCHOOL to me!!!! Yet, the true meaning of it was revealed once I sat through the whole service.

First of all we sang national anthem and said pledge (onle Singaporeans did so, Im not a traitor k…). Then we had our last chapel with the worship led my teachers. They sang very well and I sort of heard my form teacher was crying. Well, actually I was actually quite touched for whatever that happened in ACJC and whatever things that my teachers had done for us, haha…

I cant remember the actual process of this ceremony yet I know I have to mention my Principal’s speech. I always like to listen to her speech, this time what has touched my heart the most is that in her speech, I sensed her sadness for she had to say goodbye to us. I was touched because I sensed that she loved us that she couldnt bear to let us go. I did not experience that in Malaysia though.

There were two more speeches that I want to mention. One is Mdm Catherine’s Baccalaureate thoughts. Her speech was kinda funny in the sense that she had included some mathematics terms (since she’s a math teacher). And that she had summarised some of the characteristics of our batch that sounded so funny yet so memorable from the way she put it. Another speech would be Clearence’s speech. He was the 30th Students’ Council President. He has a very nice voice and a great gift in delivering speech that make him quite popular among the girls. Frankly I enjoy his speech. Compared to the previous and current presidents, I prefer his speech. As usual, his speech did not disappoint me. He too, summarised the significant memories throughout the 2 years in ACJC in a funny way. I laughed together with the students yet I had this sour feeling that I cant experience that anymore. I think Im gonna to miss it… Almost reaching to the end of his speech, he copied some advertisement lines, saying that Sport complex: $240.00… ACJC experience: PRICELESS. I cant agree with him anything less than that. It is true that the ACJC experience is priceless after going through these 2 years. Classmates, friends, teachers, CCAs, CIPs, PW, juniors etc etc All these are irreplaceable.

I almost cried, haha.. but I force myself not to… cz I think I did not want to be that emotional. My mdm cried though she became my form teacher just a few months ago. Maybe my class is just too adorable for her to fall in love with us in a very short time, haha….

Takin photos was the fun part in this service. I took quite a lot of photos, during assembly I took some, after the service I took some and during our class outing I took some. I think I took the most with friends. We (Jess, Jeff, Js, Hy and I) bought presents for the teachers, haha.. so once we were done taking photos with friends, we were off to search for teachers. We bought an artificial rose with Slyvester wearing graduation hat on top of it for Miss Lim, showing that it was a gift from the graduated us for her. We bought red pens for Mdm Liew because she loves to give tests, so the red pens would be useful. We bought a handphone accessory for Miss Toh and when you press it there will be noise from it, haha… We bought handphone holder for Mdm Lim, since it is very beautiful. We bought a pillow for Mrs Yeo, haha.. because we did not know what to buy but we couldnt find her on that day.

Barry gave every one of our class, including teachers a gift, which was pepper container. Mdm Lim gave us chocolate with an adjective which describes each one of us. Guess what? She said Im pragmatic.. haha, oh dear, m I Singaporeanised? N my beloved juniors gave all of us (Geri, Jo, Bei Shi n I) each three ROSES!!!! Wow, that was so sweet of them, haha… but to tell the truth, they only bought them because we asked for them, haha… Actually we were just joking but we did not know that they really went to buy them, haha… Well, maybe I should love them more… hmm… but this doesnt mean to let them bully me more.. haha…

Hmm… Im still not very emo about the parting from AC… maybe I would feel that when I really have to go. Maybe I will cry haha… I would definitely miss everything and everyone here… Im actually thinking whether our juniors will cry??? because all the nice seniors have to say goodbye to them?? haha…..

2 Oct is my birthday. Frankly speaking, I was not very enthusiastic about the day because I still needed to go to school!!!! And went through the boring lessons… Which reminded me that my birthday was not very special at all.. haha..

However, this is indeed a day which cheers me a lot.

Share with you how my friends celebrated my birthday…

On 1 Oct, I had planned to have dinner with roommates, so I came back from Malaysia earlier than usual. I was not very very very… excited about it though, blame on the school work.. I hate school work!!!.. haha.. So we went to Pizza Hut and tried to finish the dinner early so that I could do my work.. The atmosphere was kinda different.. maybe due to exams stress, most of us have many work to do…see lah, this is all school’s fault.. haha… Anyway, nothing much to talk about that dinner because the pizza was out of expectation.. U noe the cheezy bites right, ooh… so disappointing.. I tot I could pull as long as I can yet the bread at the circumference of the pizza would still stick… It did not look extremely yummy.. haha.. Nevertheless, at least I was satisfied with e dinner..

Well, the nicer part of the celebration began in hostel unexpectedly.. haha.. Truly at first I tot, my birthday celebration was only having a dinner. So after coming back from the dinner, I did my homework wholeheartedly in the pantry. Unexpectedly, three of them came in. Haha.. I tot they wanted to take a break or something. Then they blindfolded me. Haha.. it was definitely fun but I was just too scared of falling down that I took relatively small steps slowly when I walked. So they took me walk around the 11th floor.. During the journey I was asked to say hi to some people I did not noe.. Then they tried to bluff me by taking me in and out the lift without literally going to lower floors.. Finally they brought me back to our room. Tada…!!! Here came the surprise!!! On the floor there were presents, my sis’ soft toy and a chocolate cake!!! haha… My dear roommies bought me jewellery box. Then they asked to open a present from an anonymous with message ‘To My Lover’.. Do not be too excited yet, haha, cz currently Im still unattached, nobody asks me to be his gf yet.. But the message did sound a little bit fishy.. Bs, Jo n Geri were there making noise while I was opening the present, saying what ‘Wah.. it is from your secret admirer ah.. who is that har?? Could it be XXX? Who do u think he is?’ and trying to bluff me that the present was on the doorstep one day.. After all e guessing, finally I knew who gave me that. It was from my AJ friend, haha, then these 3 people were trying to made fun of me.. haha.. Well, anyway, this small little celebration had made my birthday a little bit more memorable.. (Note that this happened on 1 Oct, haha..)

Hey wait, I was blindfolded again!! HAix… why like that?? haha… This time round I was brought to ground floor to the canteen.. Wow, this walk was worse than just now, cz there were so many steps!!! Oh dear.. At first I wanted to bluff that I couldnt see but due to my negligent, they knew it and adjusted the towel… sob sob… haha.. So I was brought down to canteen and I was asked to turn 10 rounds when I was stopped. Oh yeah, u noe b4 that my dear roommates were very "kind".. They asked to admit that I liked XXX which I did not, then they asked to say I liked Allen jz bcz I heard his voice… haha.. Then I gave a sincere answer that I liked every juniors, haha… So I was turned 10 rounds and when I took of my towels, omg, the juniors were surrounding me!! HAix… I lost my face lor… haha… Then they said they din buy any cake because they were busy studying for exams, n I tot, its ok la.. haha.. I understand.. Who knows, actually they had brownies and ice-cream!!! haha… but then hor, they had candles but no lighter.. so they asked to imagine there was light and asked me blow… haix… haha.. I was really tired actually, haha, cz I laughed too much le… But I really appreciate the efforts to make my birthday a memorable one, Thanks Everybody!!!!

The next day, which was my actual birthday, not to mention the usual sms greetings from my friends, my beloved classmates, Jess, Jeff, Js n Ho Yuen they all were super duper wonderful!!! U noe wat they bought for me? A soft toy!!! haha… I have longed for that one and I have even made a stupid promise to myself that whoever (guys) gives me soft toy as birthday present I’ll marry to him.. But now, too bad, this gang of friends is the one that I would really ‘marry’ to.. haha.. I’ll try my bestest to preserve this friendship.. I went out with my exroommate for dinner too, haha.. and the dinner was as good as the dinner in Pizza Hut, haha…

So this is what Im sharing with u… At the end of the day, what awaits ahead is still…….. SCHOOL WORK!!!! Arghhhhhh……

I went back to sec sch today, straight after I have come over to Msia..

Well, it was fun to see all e friends there, though I din get to see all of them…

Hmm… today was not e day I would like, e internet was bad.. I couldnt watch Bleach!!!!

Omg, I din get to see my sch’s Teachers’ Day Celebration performance via Youtube!!!! Argh… I miss tt performance…

I was bored.. still dun feel like studying… how?

Haix…

有一段时间，

我的心里从来没有天晴过。。。

总是闷闷的。。。

由于考试，暂时把这 “无关紧要” 的念头搁着。。

考完试了， 它准时浮现在我脑海里。。 我该怎么办？

前几天， 更加惨， 我的思绪变得非常混乱。。。

结果我想说， 我放弃了。。 我没有多大的精力去等待， 我累了。。

放手了， 我才能让我的心变晴。

还曾以为自己能坚持到底呢， 真的有点不自量力呀。。。。

Hey… not bad right.. haha… first time I write blog in chinese… haix.. feel tired…

On 30 Aug, all the Ac senior gals woke up late in e morning. It was fun not to go school without feeling worried at all, haha… Furthermore, a burden was taken away e day b4, making the Wednesday more desirable than usual..

In e morning, we were doing our own stuffs but basically were surfing net. Then dear Geri, Bei Shi n Jo went to buy the rest of e necessities for e bbq. Me, a bit cacat one, can only stay in e room, haha…. I was trying to watch animation, Bleach but I couldnt use my junior’s com to watch, haha… Yet I was able to watch a few episodes… I din take nap, haix…

Then at ard 5 o’clock, haha, we started our ‘operation’ in the pantry. We cut fruits, prepared salad n other stuff. Only 3 of us, y? cz the juniors were all outside, haha… so poor seniors had no choice but to use more tm to prepare lor… We had 2 watermelons, 2 honeydews n 2 papaya. We had cabbage, carrots, raisins, tuna, cucumbers n tomatoes for salad. We had 3 packets of balls (sotong n prawn) n 6 packets of hotdogs…. Cutting friuts n vege alone took us one hour plus..

It was raining. So where shall we have our bbq then? Luckily we had a suitable place for us to get e fire started. With e canteen Uncle’s help, Geri n juniors available during tt tm (Shaun, ah Kit, Ken n Allen) were able to start e fire.

Being senior, of cz I would not let go of any chance for e juniors to show appreciation to e seniors (basically it was jz a thick-faced request tt e junior guys cooked n served us…… hey we did quite a lot okie, we planned n prepared le… haha..) At e end, haha… hmm… a bit disappointed… haha… nah, Shaun was good, he did serve, e rest….. forget about them, haha…

Well, actually I wasnt happy when I finally bathed n went down after preparing for abt 3 hrs plus. Y? cz there were only Shaun, ah Kit, Ken n Allen. Where r e rest? Thought they should b coming down alr? If dun help out, at least eat la… I felt quite bad if I prepare sumthing for u yet u dun eat. Do u noe how much effort and mind we had put in? Haix.. nvr giv face to seniors…

Haha… then most of e guys came down, how abt e gals? They came down late but guess wat? They made a cake for us to eat!!! Wow, what a group of wonderful juniors were they! Really appreciate tt, haha….

Haha… Our teacher mentor (who is very kaypo n mean, haha..) wanted to drop by. As a reali thick-faced gal, I asked him to bring over Haigendaz ice-cream for us, haha… (who ask him to bully me so much? he deserves it la.. haha…) Thank God tt he was so nice to buy us ice-cream, haha… Although I only had two bites, I felt happy alr, haha…

Well, e real highlight was starting from e march-in. Tt tm e Ac senior guys were there alr.. We had gotten a full-sized flag, Allen, Janene, Shaun n Christina did e march-in. E flag was gotten from our sch teacher summore, haha, great job Esther. While they were marching in, e national anthem was full of e canteen. Videos n photos were taken, how fun! Even Mr David Loh (e teacher mentor) oso witnessed tt (though he tried to sing Singapore songs, in our domain, he sure lost one la, haha…) E flag was tied on a temporary ‘flagpole’, haha…

Tt tm was not midnight yet, so we continued our activities.. sum ate, sum played frisbee, sum talked, sum played cards… haha.. It was super fun! Then when it was close to midnight, haha, we started counting down… 8….7….6….5…..4…..3….2…..1…..

"Negaraku….." wohoo!!!! Happy National Day!!!

Then we said malay version pledge, led by Ken, e J1 msian rep then chinese version one by ah Kit. J2 rep, Jiun Siang then led us 3 shouts of Merdeka!!!! haha…. They were 3 loud n clear "Merdeka"!!!!

After that we started to sing state songs, tell u wat, Johoreans were e most enthu one!! Yay!!! haha… And we sang patriotic songs too, Keranamu Msia, Setia, Sejahtera Msia n Tanggal 31..

After having so much fun, we packed up n cleaned e place, at e end I only got to sleep at 2am, haha… There are some people I would like to thank. The breakfast Auntie was very nice to offer help in marinating the chicken wings for us, summore she marinated 2 types of flavour, one was normal while the other one was black pepper. Also the canteen Uncle oso helped us to start fire. The security guard oso was nice to send us floor by floor back (We cannot access our floor after 12am..). Geri, Bei Shi n Jo were great n e juniors were cheerful n lively to liven up the atmosphere..haha… Wat a wonderful event…

Hmm… these two days were quite happening to me.

First of all, on Saturday morning, I was cleaning the room with my roommates but this accident-prone gal hurt her toe when she was cleaning the toilet, haha… At the end, I ended up in NUH A&E to get my wound stitched. I knocked a metal cover on the floor and the blood was oozing out, haha, making the bathroom like a murder scene.. Well, the wound was quite gross la… haha… haix, wat to do, Im owes that careless…

Despite of my wound, I got the urge to visit my juniors’ church, Full Gospel Assembly(FGA). Actually it was because I finally felt bored of going to my church, the New Creation Church alone, after about one year , so I was thinking of visiting the church which most of my juniors go so that maybe next time I would be able to join them if I like the church.

It was kind of silly of me, some people may think. It is because I shld have rested due to my injury yet I walked a lot to go to this church. But being able to feel God’s presence was a great temptation (and it still is) tt was very hard to against with. I never regret going there even though I sort of made the skin near my wound to peel off.. (oops..hehe..)

It is a nice church. Compared to my church, the speakers are both good cz I have the urge to listen and I would not fall asleep. I like the worship in my church more, haha.. But the thing about FGA is that there is a group of msians there, most of them are j1’s, so far I have only met one j2, Hale (correct? haha… din ask for the spelling) from RJ. Hmm.. so how? which church to go to?

Something good and surprising is that I know three persons who are from JB!!!! haha.. the first one is in AC, she is from my primary school but different secondary school. She had gotten Merit Award in Form 3 and then studied in Sg. Now she is my junior! haha, so unexpected… We think each other are familiar but we forgot how did we know each other. I know her name but I jz couldnt recall how did I know her.. well, this is really something that make me feel happy. Another two I know from FGA. Hale, was classmate of my ex-SSI juniors, haha, interesting, the world is small.. It is cool to meet someone new but having some common friends. Another one I dunno how to spell his name.. He is J1, kinda cheeky but definitely smart.. cz he jumped from Primary 3 to 5, then got his school-based schorlarship from Chinese High in Primary 6.. and he’s from my primary sch too.. haha.. It is really nice to meet them!!!

Through this visit, I mz really mention some of the ‘gentlemanness’ of the guys. Here I mz really mention Allen, my junior (but he’s older than me, hehe… Im still young..woohoho..). He helped me carry my Bible and water bottle, he lent his shoes to me when he knew that I did not have suitable shoes (well, partly because I was vain, haha, die die oso mz wear shoes that match my clothes..), although he used to walk fast, he was gentleman to follow my pace (which was like tortoise’s speed), accompany me and talk to me.. haha, finally he let me see his better character, haha… well, really thank God for sending him as my junior… (let me give you some intro about him, haha… he is one of the crazy juniors, most of the time he would talk nonsense and make people laugh. His nonsense is really nonsense, like out of nowhere, haha… BUT when he talks about Christ, he is a different person, he shows his passion towards God and he is serious, haha, which is quite rare to see… We owes argue about our schs, Im from SSI while he’s from Pelangi, haha.. One thing I have to agree, he is quite smart since he can still be a scholar though he does not study much..)

Another guy would be Hale, cz he helped me carry my food while we were eating in food court. I din expect that and it was really nice of him, haha… Tt’s God’s blessings man… well, I really appreciate that, thanks a lot.

On Sunday, I went to my church and seriously I liked the worship there. That day we had healing session and I went out to receive the healing from God in the hope that my wound would not be too bad. Actually during the FGA service they had that session too but I was jz too shy to go out, haha.. Then after the service I went to shop for bbq stuff with roommies, juniors n AC guys!! haha… though I was walking like a ‘paika’ (a lame person) I did enjoy a lot, esp when Wei Kit kept bringing me eat those samples, haha…

Recently I jz knew that my grandma has osteoporosis and anaemia. Once her health was very bad tt she couldnt get up. My sis had to help her wash clothes.. She is only 9 yrs old… I felt kinda guilthy and I have made up my mind to maximise my time at home to help her as much as I can.. I think she has suffered quite a lot cz even though she is seventy plus, she still helps us wash clothes and cooks… Also kinda regret tt last tm I din help her doing these in secondary sch due to my laziness… So, Im going back evr weekend after Sept hols till 21 Oct to help her.. I realised that I would not be able to go to church therefore I decided to go to FGA n my church next weekend.. Ytd I was quite emotional cz I think I would miss God a lot in Sept n Oct… I jz like to enjoy His presence n His Words… knowing that so much He has given to me, I want to love Him more..

Hmm… some discoveries of myself.. When I was young, I learnt this Chinese Idiom, ji suo bu yu, wu shi yu ren (meaning whatever things that you do not want, you do not give to other people). It became one of my principle because I like the way it is. I think it is necessary to owes respect the others and b considerate. Therefore, I would try not to say and do certain things to the others because I would not like the things happen to me.. And from my experience, I oso try not say wrong things, which depends on individuals.

But sometimes even if u dun say, it still happens to you. Well, that happened to me recently and I don think I handled it well.. For example, I dun like ppl say some words abt me, either in a joking or a serious manner, like ’stupid’. I dun like because I dun think anyone is stupid cz you cannot be stupid in evr areas. God has a purpose creating us, if any of us is stupid and cant achieve the purpose, he shldnt be created in the first place. But bcz He has a puspose in creating evrone, no one is stupid. Also I think that Im not stupid and I dun want to say that Im stupid jz to entertain. The situation was tt someone had teased me being stupid, I knew it was a joke but when I was trying to deny and that person still wanted to made fun of me, I felt that I ‘lost face’ and I hated tt feeling. Felt like condemned. Whether or not it wasnt intended, I detested the word strongly.. But I couldnt say anything bcz I din want to say anything mean or bad to ‘earn my face’, I cared for the person’s feelings.. Another eg is that I will feel unhappy when I know that you do not want certain things, and to me by common sense you know that I would not or most likely do not like the things yet you still offer me or sort of ordering me to have.

Hmm… truly I was kinda disturbed due to tt incident but I knew that God had spoken to me through these verses..

John 15:9-13

9 "As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in my love.10 "If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.11 "These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full.12 "This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.13 "Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.

Therefore, I have forgiven the person.

Oh dear… I think one thing Im scared of should be prelims, haha…

At first, I was actually thinking that, nvm la, prelims only, not important one la, A levels is more impt… then i heard ppl were saying tt study for A levels, not prelims, so if cannot finish oso nvm….

It was realli at first.

The first paper - General Paper…. One word, Shocked. plus, Stunned. But it was always like tt… ok lor… Then, Math.. it was tough oso, so much tougher than term exam… Chem paper 3, at e end of e paper, wanna cry alr, cz i felt i underperformed quite badly, it was out of expectation… Here comes the worst day when I had Phy paper 1 n 2 and Further Math paper 1.. I couldnt finish phy paper 2, in e afternoon i did too much careless mistakes…. argh…

First week only, I suppose right after chem paper 3, i sensed e tremendous stressed… One of e things I cannot accept always is I underperform. I know it in my heart very well. For me, you either maintain or improve, you cannot underperform, cz this means tt all e while u r jz wasting ur tm studying… haix, think should adjust my mindset a bit, so tt next tm i’ll feel less blow?

But I was really thankful tt when I felt sad, I had ppl comforting me, Jess, roommates, friends n Gorgor (brother)!!!! haha… actually the first thing I tot was call bro n cry bitterly, manja to him, haha… Who knows he had lecture, only two hours later then i called but din feel like crying le.. haix, still cannot manja to him…. haha…But I was really thankful tt they kept encouraging me, helping me to pick up myself soon, so tt i could focus on e next paper, I feel so loved.. haha… Thank you Father Lord…

Then this week, I was telling myself, mz try my best to do well, dun want to feel regret afterwards… therefore I put more stress on myself.. the first paper this week was Further Math paper 2. I owes thought I know e stuff but when I looked at e MJ paper, oh dear I got super duper shocked that I wanted to escape.. I couldnt do at all!!!! What a paper… scared me like crazy, I felt helpless… I shed some tears cz I was angry that how come I still couldn’t do. I knew tt I needed to be extra careful in doing paper 2 to conpensate e paper 1 but e thing is statistics qns are something that once u get it, u get it; u dun get, too bad… mechanics, die le die le…. esp e rigid body, reali bei da bai le… N I cried out to Lord in my heart, I was clueless of what would happen during the test, would I jz leave many qns blank? this thought was scary… Focusing in God was what I could do..

Fortunately, e paper din turn out as bad, n I think It was reali God’s grace tt at least I could do most of them… though at e end din finish oso… I felt satisfied.. I reali thanked God for helping me… Then I had Chem paper 2 e next day, oh man… I realised I shouldnt have screwed up my paper 3 cz I had no hope in getting more marks in paper 2.. It was terribbly TOUGH.. The qns were very different from what we always did…

Due to this blow, I think my room became a little bit crazy, haha… we were using bs’s account to kacau Shaun, our junior.. Geri started e conversation, then we continued, haha, guess he got quite confused by us.. But it was fun, haha.. even though our image may b ‘tarnished’ a bit, I think i would miss it.. haha… n we were saying, dun wan to study la… vr sienz… haha… but later on tt nite, we started feeling scared for ytd’s phy paper 3.. The first tm I felt super scared b4 sitting for a phy paper… gosh… N I used about one hour to discuss a fluid qn! I hadnt reali gone through what I wanted to go through…oh dear… as usual, I cried out to Lord… haix, luckily I still can sleep or else I would jz die… N i din get to do many math qns for Math paper 2..

Well, had these two tests, left one more Chem paper 1, e last one, on Tues. I hope tt e tm will pass soon, then haha, hols!!!!! To reward us for being able to pull thorugh this period, also to really have something ‘Malaysian’, we are having National Day countdown bbq on Wed!!!! yohoo!!! haha…

I remembered I joked once, if Im able to be alive after prelims, I think Im really healthy, cz after been through so many times of heart attacks n I m still leaving, proving tt I have a rather strong heart. Also I said, Im grateful to b able to die and revive again for so many times… What a prelim…

One thing to note, Im gaining weight!!!! haha… cz I have been eating a lot, I jz felt like eating la… I somehow felt hungry easily, even modway through a paper I felt hungry… haix it’s not gd.. but what to do? Be fat lor…. haha… think mz cut e quantity of food.. haha… n I have scary dark eye rings… e undesireable side effect, haha….. so to sum up, I become uglier le, haha….

Jz nw went to look at friends’ photos uploaded on friendster, xia dao, everyone look great, handsome n pretty, feel like meeting they all, haha… but it is kinda impossible la.. haha, looked at e photos i realized kinda miss them too.. haha… but i have to move on… haha…

Hmm. satisfied le, after such a long post…

Haha.. it has really been a very long time since my last post.. well, cannot help it la… too busy le… but today I am a little bit.. just a very little bit of rebellious that I have decided to update my friendster blog, haha…

Hmm.. well, I went for Mt Ophir for expedition in June hols.. It was fun during the climbing but boring at night. At night, I din no what to do, we din have activities, just talked n talked n talked. At the end we all slept early. Haha, I din no that I was so picky.. the ground was hard and uneven, I din feel comfortable, plus I used to sleep late, so I couldnt really sleep.. Amazingly, I still had the energy to complete the climbing even though I din sleep enough.. Another fun thing was that we cooked our meals using mess tins.. We can cook rice, so fun, haha… On the last day, we all had our own special meals that only a few of us ate the rice… I was one of them, my god, I felt super duper full that night, haha…

Then when the school started after june hols, what I remembered was test, test, test… especially for maths.. the teachers were crazy, lecture tests did not really satisfy their needs, therefore they gave tests during tutorials as well.. oh dear.. I know they have good intention but it was jz a bit too much to me..

Haha, here came Asean Dance to make my life more lively. Somethings that were different in this year compared to last year were that I had longer and rebonded hair, I wore a dress instead of two pieces and I had a dance partner for the Dance! haha.. the last thing was just out of my expectation!! Actually felt quite excited for the fact that I had a dance partner, somemore he is my roommates’ junior. We met in Oldham hall before I moved out from there u see..

On that day I remembered I had a mock physics paper 3 exam, then I went for a scholarships talk which I left earlier so that I can finich my preparation for the Dance on time.. But one hour was not enough for me to shower, paint nail polish on my nails, dry my hair…etc.. haha.. I used about 15 mins more, just to make sure that I looked good.. haha..

Then went down to the bus, I was super self-conscious, haha.. It was all my juniors’ fault! The guys la, owes teased me as fat girl, haha… And when the bus was reaching the hotel, haha.. the more I thought I was going to meet my dance partner, the more I felt self-conscious! Oh dear, that moment I felt a little bit regret for having a dance partner cz that self-conscious feeling was really killing me…

So then we reached there, met some friends, from ACSI and Oldham. But those from Oldham did not follow their bus but they took taxi.. Meaning that my dance partner had not yet come.. Surprisingly his friends were teasing me, so I jz smiled back without saying anything..(Tot it was quite common among them about having a dance partner thingy..)

After he had come, I introduced him my juniors, haha, felt kinda proud to show him my beloved juniors!!! Undeniably everytime I am quite disturbed when they tease me fat yet they are still my beloved juniors because they are very lively, lovely and cheerful. Haha… I did talk to Aj juniors and I oso realised that they loved taking photos, wohoo… Was glad oso to meet Mei Yan, Christine, Michele, Sue Wen and Howard..

Fast dance is something I won’t really try cz I dun find the point of it, maybe I jz dunno how to dance that’s all, haha… As a result, I din quite take note of the US and RJ bands and I din dance fast dance haha.. Instead I just walked around and chatted with friends. Haha, guess what, I saw Yap Han Ern n Sebastian!!! Oh dear, that was the first time I saw them since they came to Singapore to study!!! That was surprising.. and my dance partner knew Sebastian.. even more surprising, haha.. Well, nice to see them la.. but they din quite recognise me, which was good oso la, at least I felt happy that I have changed quite a bit in the way I look, hopefully I have become prettier, haha… nah, jz jk..

Of course to me the most memorable part was slow dance. To be frank, I was actually imagining how many people I would dance with before the Dance. I was actually hoping that I danced with more than one guy.. At the end, haha.. I danced with my dance partner only, haha… But, no regrets.. the slow dance was still the nicest thing in this Dance.. at least to me la.. haha..

But one thing I regretted… I din manage to take the ACJC cohort photo!! Haix… never mind la… haha… I merge myself into the pic can alr.. haha…

Lastly, I want to talk about God. Recently I feel my love towards God is becoming stronger. Im very grateful whatever things that He has given to me.. Ever since the first time I prayed to Him in form four and I officially received salvation last year, the more I know Him, the more I think about what He has done for me, the more I appreciate His love and the more I love Him. He is just great, too great for me. To think that I have such a great God, I feel very happy, haha…

I want to thank God for bringing me into ACJC; I want to thank God for giving me Jess, hy, etc etc as my good friends; I want to thank God for I have wonderful roommates; I want to thank God for my juniors, they are just too wonderful to me; I want to thank God for helping me in my studies; I want to thank God for my teachers for they are extremely helpful; I want to thank God for those people I know; I want to thank God for owes protecting me; I just want to thank God for everthing. He is just too wonderful that I have no regret believing in him. Father I love You.

Truthfully my experience in Singapore is very good. I meet nice people and I like them. I must say I will miss them a lot once I graduate from A Levels… Recently I oso feel very happy, haha…

Hey there, I am back in Msia!!!!!

Haha… due to this I din manage to celebrate easter in my church haha….

Well…. I cant help it…

But this does not mean that I dun feel grateful that the God, my Lord has sent His beloved Son to save us… Thank God..

Sigh… m not reali disciplined at home… I din do much of my hmwork…

Din study at all….

N get distracted a lot by com n tv….

Haha… that’s e side effects of stayin in hostel…

N…. get distracted by sum stupid qns la….

I am lost…

Losin my identity…

Forgettin who I am….

Thinkin if it is good to be alone? If it is good to be vr independent that u dun nid ppl’s accompany? Or showin that u nid ppl’s accompany, showin that u r weak, cant help but to rely on sum ppl?

Sum ppl r jz weird… vr weird… when the chance hasnt cum, they ask, "What it has not cum?" and get vr worried abt it… But when it cums, they juz escape  from it… claimin not mentally prepared…

now have a vr strong urge to compose a story, haha….

Of cz the theme is love story… or else it would be quite borin for ppl like me…

N for ppl who like to imagine a lot, like me… itz a gd remedy for a borin life…

Recently, most of the tm.. I was reminded how wonderful love is…. But is it true? I believe, the choice lies on us… Itz us who decide if v shld get involved.. even if it may be ideal to u… but the fear of the unknowns may keep ur feet from movin forward… How do u know, he’s e one? I dunno…so I hesitate… e wish to obey God… is strong…

How wonderdul love is? yes, u get joy, laughter, satisfaction, happiness… at the same time… worries, sad, hurt…. They say itz e process that make it special, may it be a happy or sad relationship…

evrday do maths….. sigh…. I got the PASSION!!! haha….

Life is jz gettin more n more borin… goin to sch is nt as interestin as b4… bombarded by piles of hmwk n preassure…. nw can reali feel the pwrful of peer preassure… haha… n that is in terms of hmwork… well, again? quite borin rite…? tt’s how my life goes…. hmm… hope there’s sum changes tt can get back my passion for life?

Lastly.. haha.. have faith in God…